Well......... I only have 12 days till I go back to work and I am just heart broken about leaving Riley =( !!! I know she will be in good hands with Cody's mom and my mom but I want her to be with me !!!! I can't even explain the saddness I am feeling and I know the closer I get to going back the more sad I will get and probably bawl my eyes out !!!!!!!!!! I am totally surprising myself b/c when I was younger and before I was even married, I always thought to myself that I couldn't be a stay at home, I would get tired of being home all the time but it's not like that !!!!!
I do have to get out sometimes so I take Riley to Cody's parents or my mom will come watch her for alittle bit just so I can go out running around for alittle bit and have some me time ..... but I love being with her !!!! Don;t get me wrong , not all days are perfect, she is a baby so of course she is fussy sometimes and that is hard b/c I don't always know what is wrong but I love this little girl more than life itself...... you always hear people say... You don't know what love is until you have a child !!!!!!! Of course you love your husband, he is your best friend, your soul mate, your rock but it is a different kind of love having a baby.... and it is the best feeling in the world ... I can't even explain that feeling !!!!!!! I don't know how many times I said I wasn't ever doing this again but the other night as I was in bed on the computer I started looking at baby names and made Cody nenrly choke to death lol !!!! He could not believe I was the one who was bringing this subject up after just having Riley and saying I was never doing this again and here... not even 3 months after having Riley I am talking about another !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He said where did this come from lol !!!!!! Then he said this isn't supposed to come up for like a year =) !!! OF course he was kidding b/c everytime I said I wasn't doin this again .... he said you will change your mind and here he was right !!!!!!!!!!!! I wish there was a way I could stay home right now.... although would I really like being at home all the time, I mean I don't make much now but I have good insurance so that helps us out alot and that is the main reason I am working !!!!!!! I know I shouldn't be griping b/c I was able to go part time but I can't stand the thought of being away from her........
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Going back to work is the HARDEST thing for a mommy to do that is true. We are just fortunate in this family that we mother's can help you and you are lucky that you are able to work just part time. I would say the Lord is looking out for you all around.
ReplyDeleteJust know that on those few hours you have to be at work that she will be cherished and very well taken care of. It will be her special Nana and Mimi time! We love you sweetie.